How to Live

There are two days in every week about which we should not worry, two days which should be kept free from fear and apprehension. One of these days is Yesterday with all its mistakes and cares, its faults and blunders, its aches and pains. Yesterday has passed forever beyond our control. All the money in the world cannot bring back Yesterday. We cannot undo a single act we performed; we cannot erase a single word we said.Yesterday is gone forever. The other day we should not worry about is Tomorrow with all its possible adversities, its burdens, its large promise and its poor performance; Tomorrow is also beyond our immediate control. Tomorrow's sun will rise, either in splendor or behind a mask of clouds, but it will rise. Until it does, we have no stake in Tomorrow, for it is yet to be born. This leaves only one day, Today. Any person can fight the battle of just one day. It is when you and I add the burdens of those two awful eternity's Yesterday and Tomorrow that we break down. It is not the experience of Today that drives a person mad, it is the remorse or bitterness of something which happened Yesterday and the dread of what Tomorrow may bring. Let us, therefore; live but one day at a time.

_ Sherry Haney_

Motivation

Be strong now
Because things will get better
it might be stormy now
But it cant rain forever...

Quote of the Day

Having a purpose is the difference between making a living and making a life.

-- Tom Thiss

Ohh Billie

I have been sleeping all these years, and just dreaming that I was awake.

Quote of the day

Meditation consists of two simultaneous processes:
One is insight-which is paying attention to what is arising.
the other is surrender-which is letting go of attachementto arising thoughts... This is how you cut free of the mind.


--Dan Millman

Smart Man

"The Doctor of the future will give no medicine but will interest his patients in the care of the human frame, in diet and in cause and prevention of disease. --Thomas Edison

title

I have not yet looked to see the topic of our final paper. I am going to allow it to be a surprise for this coming Saturday, in hopes that it will be an enjoyable assignment.

fresh beginning

Have you ever yearned for pain
Or sought malcontentment
Can you imagine chasing anger
Or envying resentment
Think of a time sorrow dominated
Your usual resilience
Now imagine that relentless calm ....
Is the enemy of existence....

Filled overflowing with empty....
Void of life but not dead....
Purposely numbed to the conflicts
Of fighting demons in my head
For months I have felt no emotion
Overtaken by the demons I know
Fighting their all consuming battle
For ownership of my soul....

A wounded child in grown man pain
There is a kind of quiet provided
Effective benefits wrapped in limitation
Offer an illusion of safety misguided
So I hide the child while I escape from pain
To protect him from the truth
But in the chasm between intent and impact
Hides a casualty of tortured youth

Time has shown the boy within
To my souls’ worth holds the key
And the locks I used to protect his place
Now keep his joy from me
He sits anesthetized in a room of despondency
Shocked by a revolting loss of innosence
Tasks checked with perfunctory completion
Days filled with imperturbable insolence
The kind of abuse he endured
While I nursed my petty pain
Left him hiding in deep retreat
From the man that I became

Why did I not say no at the first mention
How could I even allow this to begin
Why subject my value, my worth, my future
To lies of demons from within
Because I gave them authority
When I invited them come, sit and visit
I surrendered 8 years to their seizure
Thinking I’ll get it back when I miss it

But I was unprepared for the fight
Between me and demons empowered
This is my life and this is my soul
Never again will they see me cower....
With no pipe to bind me
Or mirror to numb
No green herb's boost
My words to make dumb

You now see a man
That has had more than enough.
I will not give you residence
I will not give me up....
To begin my journey of completion
And keep the demons I’ve expelled at bay
I must prove to the hiding child in me
My abuses are forever gone away

From emptiness we will walk
Armed with wit, charm and might
I will fight today, tomorrow and forever
I will not go gently into that dark night
When that mirror of truth stared at me
Revealing a shell of skin concealing bone
No reason to question emotions fleeting
Purity cannot call a wasteland its home
With a timid voice my vices acknowledged
To guys living with similar strife
With eyes of hope and redemption
The scared boy came back to my life
Daily we clear the battlefields
The young boy and I hand in hand
Renewed by self appreciation
An unwavering belief that we can

Still live the best life for us
Gratitude and respect overflow
For the chance to be the man
That we have come to know
These are my secrets revealed
The few treasured hopes that remain
In the beginning of my triumph
I stumble through rocky terrain
If ever you look up and find
Life has brought us to the same place
You’re looking at a work in progress
Who welcomes your friendly embrace....

>>>?<<<

So many people fear death. Would immortality be so much better?

Ponder

Imagination holds great power and intent is needed to harness it.

I see

"Research is immersion in the unknown. We can't be sure whether we're asking the right questions or doing the right experiment until we get the answer or the result . . . ." If researchers don't feel stupid that means they are not really trying.Sir, a+b^n /z = x Therefore God exists.

quote Billie emailed me. from Dr Demartini, again.

Idea

What I am about to propose may be suicide in one meaning of the word, but I have decided that over springbreak I am going to attempt to work ahead in 3 of my classes and finish everything. If I can type my papers, and complete my already posted assignments, then the remainder of the year will flow much smoother and allow more time for the important things. I came to the conclusion that I could either sleep and enjoy one week and then bust but for the next eight weeks (or so) or I could work hard that one week, and sleep more every night for eight! A pretty ingenius plan I declare.

Can Not Wait

Tomorrow, I get to go to Eureka Springs tomorrow to Kayak the Kings river. I am going to stop by a spa and get a massage so that I can deduct the entire trip. It was a brilliant hippie that came up with that idea. I have taken numerous trips that I have gotten massages and deducted the entire trip...

I shall post letting you know how it goes.

My brain hurts

Now that midterms are over its time to begin the wound licking duty. Shortly thereafter begins the cleanup duty, which consists of stepping it up in those classes that have slipped into the red zone. Hope everyone has fun in Panama City!

Midterms schmidterms

Slit my wrist with a spoon. Thats whats on the menu today ladies and gentlemen.

More Vitamin D Please!

Isn't this weather amazing? Every year it seems like the winters get longer and the summer seasons shorter. This prove to be hard for a beach rat like myself, which is why I am adjourning the the river today to go kayaking. I figure I might as well take adavantage of this illusive beautiful weather.

-- Happy Floating all

Hootie Hoo!

I have just made the most significant investment thusfar in my life. I bought a BMW 5 series. That being said, im off to wherever the road takes me. (potentially Florida) Chao...

More food for thought

Every individual is as old as their spine. If the spine is rigid so is the mind. If the mind is rigid so are the arteries. If the arteries are rigid so is the body, and you do not have life or health. The body is governed by the mind and the body, and the mind is governed by the soul or spirit. In order to maximize potential, the body must listen to the mind and the mind must be guided by the spirit. Inside us all is a wisdom, but our sensory input from the outside world tends to cloud that wisdom from the inner world, when all of a sudden the inner world/inner wisdom speaks and it guides you and directs you. It takes you to new quantum levels of thinking and action and you have healing. Don't ever walk away from tests or classes without saying thank you because everything you go through is just all a test to prepare you for being something great. Every class will serve you.
Question: "Why do I need to study the calculus?"
Answer: "The reason you study the calculus is not to measure the volume of a door, but to understand how to discipline your mind because you will need to do that to master what you're here to do on this planet. Everything serves to a wise person. They don't see any waste or mistake, they just see gifts. Your reflection is NOT in the present. What you see is manifest of yesterday's choices. Right NOW you are forming tomorrows reflection.

Billie sent me this,

Inspiration provided by Dr. Demartini: Inspirational speaker.

ohh the possibilities

I really am having a difficult time finding a med school that I feel best suites me. It seems as though the more I study and and learn about everything, the more people have bad things to say about it. its a bit discouraging. When you think you have found the perfect path, thats when you find all the postings slamming that career path, its quite stressful.

friends

A good friend will come bail you out of jail.... A true friend will be sitting next to you saying, "damn, we F*$ked up."


-- Quote from Billie M.

MEMEME

I am the author of my own life, unfortunately I am writing in pen.

Breathe

When something brings you to frustration, take a step back, focus your attention elsewhere and change your mindset.

What Is That?

What a great weekend! I had some friends come into town to hang out just like the good ole days. We ate, laughed and had a great time. Among all the great things that we have done, the one that provides an interesting story began when we finished walking through Petland (Which was not my idea in the first place). Petland which is owned by the Hunte Corporation, has been known for inbreeding its animals and is the reason I would never support them. We walked though and played with the puppies then decided to go grab something to eat, as we were eating, we were talking about the puppies that we were playing with, when someone overheard us talking and stepped in to tell us a story. This older couple proceeded to tell us about there personal experience with a hermaphrodite puppy from Petland! They took there little "male" pup in to get neutered and found out that it was packing junk from both sexes. Apparently Petland in Springfield has had several cases such as this already and has sold dual gender creatures to the public. It would make since t0 create a position at Petland where someone checks the animals body parts! Dont support Petland, please just go to the Humane Society and rescue a pet rather than giving your money to a puppy mill.

im lovin it

This is by far the best 4 day weekend ever. There is nothing like spending time with friends, having a good paying job, and no homework. It truely makes me appreciate those days before I started back to school when all I had to worry about was work and what I wanted to do. I hope yours is as relaxing and soothing as mine.

-Kor

my poetry

an eye for an eye,
a tear for a tear,
if I could have one thing,
Id wish you were here,
to give me a hug,
and maybe a kiss,
just to show me that I would be missed,
we may never talk
and/or ever speak
but between you and me
we know what we think
that I love her
and she loves me
but that we are both to stubborn to see
that the love the glows
between us both
will never fade
and will always show

Pulitzer Prize

A college was told that they had to write a short story in as few of words as possible.the instructions were: The short story had to contain the following three things.

1. Religion
2. Sexuality
3. Mystery

Below is the only A+ short story in the class.

"Good God, I'm preganant; I wonder who did it."


( forwarded from a friend that actually used this in a class)

hmm

Tonight is first Friday art walk. I think I will venture downtown and check out the nightlife. Its been a long time since I have gone to see the local art.... fair thee well

brain food

I enjoy pondering over things that could be considered brain food. The idea that I was rolling around today was as follows: assuming sometime a few nights ago you cooked a meal and used all your knifes in the preparation of your food, and you have yet you wash anything seeing as how you just threw it all in the dish washer. If you finally made the decision that life was just to much to bare, and that you were going to end your life by slitting your wrists, would you disinfect or even wash the knife before you imparted on your culinary skills? I find this an interesting question to ask friends.

(No worries, this is just an idea to ponder regarding the psyche of people... Im a happy libran)

advertising brilliance

Have you wondered when it is going to be socially acceptable to start advertising every day items on condom Wrappers? Obviously things such as T.V. commercials have gotten more riskay, along with movies, the radio and so on. I wonder when it will step up to the next level of advertising. Imagine reaching over to grab a condom one night in preparation for the heat of passion and it saying Nike; "Just Do It", or having the pringles guy on there saying; "once you pop, you cant stop". Chevy; Like a Rock. the possibilities are endless. One that I have most recently thought about was Double Stuffed Oreos. I can roll that one around in my head for quite some time contemplating the ability it has. As fasinating as the topic is I must donate some credit to my roomate Kyle, as he inticiated this thought of mine when we were talking about marketing ideas one night.

BAHHHH

What do you think of when you think of snow days? I think about relaxing, catching up reading, perhaps even a little homework, right? Being that I have a full time job along with an eighteen hour semester, I rather enjoy these days of cold, white solitude. I also feel like I have a realists perception when it comes to making up those gifts from nature, realizing that at the either at the end of the school year or somewhere along the way the slack must be regained. I adjourned to class this morning to realize that come Monday morning, I must be at school at 7:00AM to make up the "lost" time. How much shit is that? It is not like I am lazy by any means, I already have 3 out of my 6 days of school each week that begin at 7:00, but now I get to be reprimanded from sleep for no apparent reason at all. While they were delivering this electrifying enema, the entire room began to swelter in frustration and disgust. All that our teacher said was that it was no ones fault but Missouri, like that would soothe our rage? Bullshit...

hello bright eyes

The eyes tell you alot about a person. You may be surprised at what you can discover if you look deep enough.

valentines day is valentines gay

I think this holiday loses something when your single, its almost like it totally sucks! So while everyone is out on the town having romantic dinners and fretting over getting their roses in water in time, I shall be at home feeling sorry for myself. Yep, thats right I am just that cool. So when you kiss your significant other goodnight give em' one from me. So have a great freakin time. I hope its expensive, not worth it, and your food is cold.

Sincerely single

scales of life

As I sit here enveloped in my peaceful surroundings, I allow my mind to wander, all the while the desire, a constant pulling of something that keeps telling me to record my thoughts during this time of reflection.
Libras, we are the only non-living sign amongst the stars. We stand alone balancing our shadowed pasts with the ever changing present. We are the ones who mediate between enemies, between strangers, between all. We are the peace keepers. Some call us the artists, as to say that we are the inspiration for all.
No sign is perfect, nor is everyone true to their sign. I believe if you are not true to your sign, then you are not true to yourself, and perhaps following a path that is not destined to be yours, if your sign can claim you, then you are on a path closer to that in which you are destined.
Everything is weighed with Librans, and is always an exact calculation. Even our spontaneity is conformed to our assessment of the outcome. Librans will approach a relationship with said caution and sincerity as well. Often times it may come across as judging to those who misperceive the Libra, but in truth we merely are checking and weighing the situation in order to keep our hearts away from the inevitable fire. Once Libras offer their love, they offer it in its entirety, without restrictions. Through inevitable miscalculations in our judgment, or errors on our part, Librans loose a piece of themselves every time there love is invalidated through a broken relationship. Many people claim to this, but none is true as it is to the Libra. It has been shown time and time again, Librans loose so much of themselves in the quest for love and companionship that they loose the ability to love all together, forcing them to continuously carry the void of a broken heart and the inability to regenerate.
To have loved so hard that you can love no more sounds harmonic, but it’s a crushing fate that lurks in our shadows.